Money, Money, Moneeyy

So, the price of gold is skyrocketing. So are the profits of the firms excavating gold and those starting out. I have recently heard of a company through my coworker that is just opening its first mine in North Africa. It's a penny stock, barely worth over a dollar a share. I'm heading to my bank today to set up an online trading account, so I can purchase and sell shares online. Setting up the account is free, but I'm not sure I want to buy into this company. I have researched the business and it is legitimate, and the stock broker I talked to knew of them. I would normally not, but I have a large sum of money sitting in an account to pay for my schooling. It would be great if the money was earning more than its current 3% interest annually. I was thinking of investing a small amount, just to see what happens, and then make further investments based on that. The thing is, if I lose all the money I am royally screwed. But, if these shares keep on jumping as high as they are, then I could easily make a couple thousand, probably more. It's such a toss-up.

OH, fabulous news ! Not only am I currently dating a guy that is cute and sweet, but a new one has appeared. He had sent me an email about two weeks ago through Hi5, this website that connects you to your friends and then new people throught them. It turns out that his best girlfriend's best friend is related to one of my friends. Anyways, he emailed me and we chatted on messenger for a bit. He works just down the street from where I live, I'm going to just go into his work and check him out a little bit, you know, to scope out the goods... So, now I need to go and make myself pretty.

OH, and I called into work sick yesterday, which I felt bad about cause I think someone had to work overtime to cover me. Anyways, I woke up this morning with this horrible headache and a lot of sneezing. There was also dried blood on my two fingers and in my ear. No freaking idea how that happened ! I'm sure it was just that the skin of the ear got dry and cracked and bled, but just to be careful, I have a doctor's appointment on Monday.

Anyways, got to go and get ready to go and scope out the second man. Oh, dear, I sense this may end in drama.

"Don't Call Me Baby" - Madison Avenue

You and me, we have an opportunity
And we could make it something really cool
But you, you think I'm not that kind of *boy*
I'm here to tell you baby, I know how to rock your world


Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood


Dont' call me baby
You got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong to you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby


Behind my smile is my IQ
I must admit, this does not sit, with the likes of you
You're really sweet
Mmm, you're really nice
But didn't mama ever tell you not to play with fire?

Public Service Bulletin !

Ok, so since there has been quite a strong interest in the magical and quite mystical "undereye" serum that I had mentioned in the previous post, I thought I had better post this so everyone can know !

Firstly, for those of you who do not know, the product in question is called "Undereye Serum" by Clarins. It tightens and moisturizes the area directly beneath the eyes to make them look restored and beautiful. It also makes those damned baggy area and dark circles somewhat disappear. Though it does not remove them completely, it most certain works a miracle, and it takes only seconds to notice a difference !

Secondly, the product I used was part of the men's line. I imagine it makes no difference wether you are male or female using it. Just to be a good researcher though, I have found what I believe to be the comperable product in their female line of cosmetics.

Thirdly, the packaging I am showing you images of here is from their Canadian website, so though I doubt it, the individual packaging may look different in your country.


Ok, so here is the women's line. The item on the far right is what I believe to be the comparable product. The other two are part of their "eye reviving" line, and it may be of use to buy the set to save money. However, I would just recommend getting a sample of the stuff first.

This is the men's product, it is fabulous ! I don't know what else to say !

Self-Tanning

I am terribly sick of being confused as a ghost when I walk down the street. Seriously, the other day this elderly lady almost fainted because she saw an "apparition" appear and walk towards her. It's because I'm so white you can almost see through me, and it was totally her fault for standing in front of the salon doors like that, I had to look menacing to make her move !

Suffice to say, I am self-tanning today. I am not allowed to see the light of day for more than a couple minutes because of the Accutane™, so I can't go out and get tanned like I would normally be at this time of the year. It's really been hard on my self-esteem to go from being a tanned god one summer to a pasty apparition-confused man-o-white the next.

If I am to be a sun-neurotic vampire this summer, I might as well be a tanned one !

I am using a Neutrogena self-tanner. I had an amazing shower this morning with intense scrubbing and exfoliation action going on. The medication specifically says I should NOT exfoliate my face during it, and therefore I don't know if it's a good idea to try and use the stuff on my face, even though it says it is safe for "facial use". I am starting out by using it on my legs and a small spot on my tummy. Hoepfully, in a couple of hours, that will look good and I can use it on the rest of my body.

I can't believe I have the spare time to do stuff like this, it is awesome. I love being a hectic flying-by-the-seat-of-my-pants student one day to a self-tanning, home spa-ing, yoga-doing fashionista the next.

UPDATE:

The Neutrogena crap turned my legs orange. In a fit of rage I went to the SunMist™ tanning salon downtown. I paid a little bit of money more, but now I have a gorgeous fake tan that looks like I just got back from the Bahamas. It's amazing. I had to wear a loose linen shirt all day, and even though I am kinda sticky, I can't shower until 5pm. At which point it will have been 6 hours since I had it applied.

I have to work tonight at a "cleaning party", which is yet another stupid idea that the corporate heads at Starbucks make their minions do every once in a while. I am not suppose to exercise for at least 24 hours after having it applied, but since I am to clean tonight, I imagine that will involve sweating and "working out". I am honestly considering calling in sick. I would, but my Manager already hates my guts for being a student that can't work as much as she wants, so this might be a tipping point. Meh, f*ck them.

I dropped off resumes at two restaurants yesterday, both of which I know people at, and they would love to have me as a server there. I can't wait to show off my gorgeous tan at some interviews. I told the Co-op office I will be looking for an intership for September, and they told me that there are far fewer people looking this September than there was in the summer. My chances should be good, but that also means no school for about 8 months, I would feel soo guilty. It may be nice though, to have money in my account, and no debt over my head. Hrmm.

I love my tan, I look SO summery ! WOOt to me !

My gorgeous self:

Apparently I'm a "Lush"

Today I was told by not one, but two friends, that I am a "lush". For those of you not familiar with the term, its a nice, rather fabulous version of an alcoholic.

Mind you, this was while I was trying to find my half-finished bottle of Kahlua that I keep in my desk at home for studying purposes, and then gave up and got my back-up bottle that is in my bedside table.

I also had about 6 drinks last night, and shared a bottle of champagne on the grounds of a very expensive, 5 star hotel here downtown. We later had to leave because someone called security because we were laughing and making a lot of noise. I also drank a lot Saturday night. I already blogged about that, so see previous post ! Well, we walked around a lot downtown with our happy little bottle of champagne. It was my friend's 20th birthday, so we might as well drink as our youth slips away.

I AM SOOO OLD ! GAWD.

Yeah, so I have this huge craving for Bailey's right now, which is overwhelming, its all I can think about. I am "babysitting" my 9 year-old brother right now, and its almost his bedtime. I think I am going to put him to bed and go and by some Bailey's to have with coffee tonight. I can also use the Bailey's to have with coffee during my haircut at the salon tommorrow at the ungodly hour of 8:45am. I love how all these plans come to fruition perfectly !

I am totally not a lush, I just enjoy life and have fun. I think there are PLENTY of people who drink more than I do. OOoo, I wonder how I should have my hair done. Post a comment on whether I should go really short or really long, I like extremes !

Ciao Y'all !

The Importance of Proof-Reading

Today is my friend's birthday. She is being dumb and doesn't want to do anything during the day today, but rather just wants to go out tonight, my other friend was suppose to hang out with us today, and go shopping, but instead she has to work. We had an entire day planned, and now its Kaput !

So, your probably asking yourself, "what does this have to do with proof reading ?". Well, glad you asked ! I was looking for golf courses today, because we figured we would just kidnapp her and make her golf with us. I haven't been golfing since I lived in Dubai, and most of my friends have never golfed. We decided that it would be fun to try and rent carts and go out golfing for the afternoon, and maybe sneek some alcohol into water bottles, ya know. Mmmm, vodka. I'm also totally wiped from last night. OH ! I forgot to mention last night. Wait, I have to end this story !

Anyways, so while I was looking for golf clubs, I noticed how badly proof-read some of their websites were, it was saddening. Things like "tiwlight instead of "twilight" and "feess", it was bad. Anywho, turns out Victoria has some of the best golfing in Canada, so we were excited. It also meant that we have some of the highest fees in Canada, GAWD! So, agreeing to not pay craploads to probably just make fools of ourselves, we are instead now just going out for coffee. Woot !

So, last night I had my last final exam, from 7pm - 10pm. WORST EXAM TIME EVER., especially on a Saturday night, and when I also had two exams that day, the other was at 9am. So I was effectively at school for more thatn 12 hours yesterday, on a SATURDAY !

I just wanted to go home and cry after the exam. Nichole, who was also in the last exam was quite adament that we go out to this rather large local pub with a dance floor and get soo drunk that we forget the exam. Suffice to say my friend convinced me to go out and get hammered, which I then proceded to do. I also made out quite a lot with the new boy, more updates on that later. He has the hottest hair ever, EVER !

Today my head hurts. I started with a beer, then vokda, then rum, and finally,.... shots of tequila ! I always end up doing shots of tequila. I think they are all fighting in my tummy right now. I imagine that either vodka or tequila are winning. Tequila is small, short, and most likely Mexican, so she has probably got some attitude and is fiesty. She is small though, so she may have to use her strong vocal skills to win a verbal rather than physical battle. Vodka is awesome, he is this GIGANTIC Russian, or maybe Pole, who can kick some serious ass. He's built to rediculous porportions, but he's not really hot, more of a hard-charm sorta look. He is all serious, but once he has been drinking (which they have been in my stomach, I can tell) he is a huge ball of fun. I would just never want to be on his bad side. Therefore, I deduce that Vodka would win.

How on earth did I get onto that train of thought ? These, and more questions, answered on the next episode of "The Adventures of Matt the broke UVic-dom" !!

Dah, DAh DUUMMMMmmmm.

SOoOoo close...

I have two finals on Saturday. EW. I am starting to study for them today, which is late, but work has been unforgiving. Apparently, they don't give a rats ass that I'm a student. I was suppose to work 30 hours this week, I'm not. It's a long story though, and I'd rather not talk about it now.

I need to study, I will be so excited when these exams are done. I will be finally finished.
WOOT !

Well, finished for a semester.

I have found the perfect replacement sunglasses for my Versaces that I lost. They are Prada, and they are fabulous. Sunglass Hut wants to sell them to me for $370.00, but I know better. I found the EXACT same pair on eBAy, and I want them. I can get them off eBay for about $215.00 plus about $18 in shipping. The seller is in Brooklyn, and what do you wanna bet that they are stolen goods. hehe, I honestly don't care. I want them. Hrm, I believe I will find a picure of them and post it here, just to show you how fabulous they are:

They fit my head perfectly, so I'm pretty sure I'm going to buy them today. Gawd, I want them. As you may or may not be aware of, I am a broke University student. But, I have a fabulously expensive sense of style. I have set up a memorial fund, in memory of my Versace sunglasses, and are taking donations. The monies will be well-used towards personal fashionable charity causes, such as the purchase of these new unglasses. I can accept both personal cheques and cash, but not credit card or money order. Please email me [mkbowyer@gmail.com] to get my mailing address. Thank you. (I'm totally not joking here)

In related news, I need to study, so I'm off to go and do that right now. I think I'll study in bed all say, since it's raining. Wish me luck !

I heart Meg Ryan

I love Meg Ryan. That is all.

Great Day

I'm gonna have a great day. I woke up today and got going right away. I've been having a really hard time getting out of bed and up in the mornings, and its been eating away at my general overall productivity. I'm listening to Len ~ "Steal my Sunshine". I heart this song, hehe, I also heart butter tarts. If you have never had a butter tart, I insist you go out and buy a dozen or two this weekend, and enjoy them !
I've been turned down by my last possible Co-op employer, and I'm not going to apply for any more. I've decided to take the summer slow. I'm going to just work or go to school. I'm not sure which one I'm going to end up doing, but I have an overall plan. My plan of action that springs into effect on Monday. Speaking of which, I have a Stats final on Monday. I had better go study. Thats what I'm doing this weekend, I have a date with the big comfy chair and my desk.


I lost my Versace sunglasses this week. Suffice to say I am upset. This song is dedicated to their memory, may they be happy and content in the afterlife. I hope whomever stole them is treating them the way they deserve.

Empty Streets ~ Late Night Alumni

the city feels clean this time of night just empty streets

and me walking home to clear my head

i know it came as no surprise

i'm affected more than i had guessed on what was said

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see how it's broken

it's the quiet time before the dawn and i'm half past making sense of it, was i wrong?

should i claim to give it all ** in a world where not much ever seems to last long

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open if we make it i won't

see how it's broken
how it's broken (3x)
(repeats) if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see how it's broken
how it's broken (repeats)

Vancouver !

Ah, So the weekend was loads of fun. We had dinner on friday night in Surrey, as I was staying with a coworker who's family lived in Surrey. Not the ghetto part, but the nice part that had large woody areas and safe neighbourhoods. We started Saturday at 9am with a trip to Spa Utopia, the most wonderful spa in the world. You enter the island oasis and dress in your robe and sandals, adn then lounge I lounged in the steamroom for many a minute. Then I rested in the waiting area for my spa person, there were dried fruits, fresh fruits, wine, juices and cheese. Soooo wonderfully relaxing. I had a pedicure with Ally (the woman who we went with) and enjoyed my white wine and orange juice at 9am. Later we went to White Rock for lunch at a restaurant called "Charlie Don't Surf", which was good. I got a little tipsy from there particularly strong long island ice teas, but then I don't particularly like shopping sober anyways. Speaking of which, I purchased some rather butt-fabulous Guess jeans from the outlet mall we went to in Langley. It was wonderful, the Mexx outlet was wonderful too, and I am a proud owner of way too many tees and sirts from there now. We went to Krispy Kreme donuts in Surrey, and ate way too many. Andrea and I shared a box of a dozen, soo much happiness ! The day was amazing, the night not so much, we went to a country bar, enough said. I dislike country with a fairly strong passion (except Shania).

Sunday was good too, we did some shopping in Surrey, and then caught the ferry home. All in all a wonderful relaxing weekend. Just what the doctor ordered.

P.S. My camera has died, so I will need to recharge it before I upload the pics from it, and post them here. There are some fabulous ones.

The Weekend is here !

I'm going to Vaaaancouvver ! Thank God it's the weekend !

I'll most likely have some stories to share when I come back. Till then, Ta Ta ! Also, Everyone should download this song, its my theme song:

I'm shakin' - up my plan
And I get by

I'm savin' all my soul
And all my pain
So I can lose control
On Sa-turday
I'm gonna' blow it all away

I can't wait for the weekend to begin
I can't wait for the weekend to begin

(Breakdown)

I can't wait for the weekend to begin
For the weekend to begin
Begin (x13)

I can't wait for the weekend to begin

I got to get my fix
And fly tonight
And when the clock strikes 6
On Fri-day night
I'm gonna' blow it all away

I can't wait for the weekend to begin
I can' I can'
I can't wait for the weekend to begin
I can' I can't
I can't wait for the weekend to begin

The Weekend - Michael Gray

Is it PARTY time yet ?

I cannot WAIT until my trip to Vancouver. I wanna shop, spa, and drink my eyeballs off ! I really hope the galls don't mind us going to the fabulous gay clubs there. Celebrities is mainly the one I wanna go to, I was there last summer for pride, and man was that fun ! hehe, we had about 8 people in our hotel room one night (and there was only 3 of us on the trip ;) .

Also, I have stumbled upon the most fabulous website/online club IN THE HISTORY OF MAN ! I want to be a member ! It's freaking fabu !


P.S. Andrea, If your reading this, Why wouldn't you wanna dance with this !

Balancing Act

OH MY GOOD SWEET MERCIFUL ZOMBIE JEBUS !

Ok, here's the delio. Not only did I accept a Co-op position yesterday, but today I had TWO requests for an interview with Government jobs. I have accepted both and have a computerized skill test tommorrow for one and aninterview for one on next Wednesday.

It's overwhelming. I had originally agreed to start work at the one I accepted yesterday next week, which I am now biting myself for doing. I would much rather work at these Ministry jobs because they are better paid and more related to my degree ($17.96 an hour vs. $12 an hour). I have now emailed them and told the President, whom I know, that I won't be able to start until May 1st, hopefully buying me some time to see what happens with these other two jobs.

My current employer, Starbucks, just literally called while I was writing this blog, and asked me to remain on as a Supervisor, just working on the weekends, until the end of May. They would appreciate it, because they are already understaffed before I left, and are even moreso now. I have tentitively agreed, but told them that it may change.

The interview/test that I have tommorrow is two hours of multi-tasking testing and typing testing that I have to go through. I really want that job and hope that it all works out.

I never knew that being such a hot labour commodity was such a huge amount of work ! What a balancing act ! But it sure is fun :D

Wow, I'm smart.

I'm brilliant really, and totally modest. What a perfect package ?

No more mood swings for me, I have finally landed a Co-op work term with Gateway File Systems. Unfortunately, due to the nature of a lot of the work I will be doing there, I cannot talk about it until the launch of their new product in May/June. I can say its mostly marketing, design, and training, which I love.

It is a gorgeous, sunny 12 degrees celcius here (for those of you who use Imperial, change, the rest of the world has!) and I cannot wait to go get a pedicure in Vancouver next weekend. Some friends of mine from work are coming. It's an "April-birthday only" event, all three of us have birthdays within 10 days of one another. We'll be spa-ing and shopping till we drop.

I got a weird call from a guy I dated more than a year ago yesterday too. He is one of those people that you like, but kinda gives you an odd vibe, and you don't know why. I'm pretty sure that all he is interested in is sex, which isn't gonna happen, cause I've sworn off men until I am done my degree. I just don't have time for the dating and the constant drain on my bank account that is a significant other. It's a financial decision really, dating wastes money. Well, at least for now that's my motto.

I'm going to "try" and do an assignment today, and then go with my mom to the Chiropractor and to lunch. We'll see if the assignment even gets started. It's just so damn hard to focus when all I wanna do is go and tan. Oh, right, I can't tan with the stupid medication I'm on, it's quite rediculous.

Yes, my summer plans have all fallen into place perfectly. I'm going to start subscibing again to Wallpaper, I used to get them all the time, then I stopped. I need, now more than ever, to start immersing myself in the world of fashion, architecture, design, and travel again.

Though I'm really more of a Versace sort of boy, I simply adore this Gucci ad. I'm mentally prepared for the shopping at Ferragamo, Armani Exchange, and Zara.

Burn This City !

I'm totally out of control ! It's taken me all day to finally wake up, ever have one of those days ? I woke up slowly, went with my Aunt who is visiting from rural Saskatchewan (prairies) to her salon make-over appointment. So much fun. We just had tea and coffee with cake and crumpets as per our family's Sunday tradition. Gotta love the Brits ! Anyways, my Uncle was present at this event, the Uncle whom I have no spoken to in months, because of a huge family feud. I am still very mad at him, but we hugged and kinda made up. It was a healthy start. My two Aunts are still here, we're all having dinner soon. So, finally at late evening, I feel totally energized and AWAKE. I feel like I could take on the entire world ! I am starting my math assignment that is due tommorrow and I am gonna rock it ! I am soo happy to just be me in this moment. I'm jetting off to Vancouver for a shopping/salon/spa three day trip next weekend, and I just want to work my ass off until then ! My life rocks, and I'm gonna rock it good ! LOOK OUT WORLD !

Eyes
Burning a way to me
Eyes
Destroying so sweetly
Now
There is a fire in me
A fire that burns

This fire is out of control
I'm going to burn this city
Burn this city
This this fire is out of control
I'm gonna burn this city
Burn this city

This fire is out of control
This fire is out of control
This fire is out of control
and I burn

Eyes
Boring a way through me
Paralyse
Controlling completely
Now
There is a fire in me
A fire that burns

This fire is out of control
I'm going to burn this city
Burn this city
This fire is out of control
I'm going to burn this city
Burn this city

If this fire is out of control
Then I
I'm out of control and I burn
Oh how i burn for you
Burn, oh how I burn for you
burn
how I burn
how I burn
oh how I

This fire is out of control
I'm gonna burn this city
Burn this city
This fire is out of control
I'm gonna burn this city
Burn this city
This fire is out of control
I'm gonna burn this city
Burn this city
This fire is out of control
I burn
I burn
I burn
I burn

This Fire - Franz Ferdinand

It's not so bad....

Today just seems like the sort of day that will result in many a memborable quote. So far today I have two: (it's just morning still)

1. "I can't tell you over the phone, I need my hands to explain."
   
2. "Sure, if you would just step inside my closet."
   

UPDATE:
Today was a day. I came into work and there was a puddle the size of half the store behind the counter and in the backroom. It turns out, after much research, that the pipe leading out of our store's grease trap was clogged. The place smelled awesome (your sarcasm detector should be beeping). We closed the store for two hours, while the repairmen cleaned out the grease trap, and repaired the leak. It was rediculous.

I stumbled upon this article while trying to find a picture for today. My life is not that bad, comparitively. Articles like this put it all into perspective. They also make me cry. What a great example of the "religion of peace" that Islam claims to be. Then people ask me why I say 'I think religion just interferes in true spirituality'. Sigh, what a world.

Defeated

I feel so very defeated, it's my word of the week. I never got a call from the position I had an interview for, despite the fact that they said I would know by the end of the week. I barely finished my stats assignment in time, and its not going to get a good mark. I am unprepared for the finals that are coming up, and I have no time to study. I feel stretched to the max, defeated, and ultimately a failure. I know it will pass, but it's overwhelming right now. I just don't even know where to begin to get back on track. I'm near the breaking point, and I don't know what to do.

Waiting...

Aaah.
That was a big sigh. I'm waiting for a phone call sometime this week, that may open doors for me and result in a three-fold increase in my stress rate. It would be the most amazing opportunity, and would utilise my skills perfectly, as well as my personality. It would be high energy, fast-paced, almost completely on my own schedule, and amazingly creative. It would also be a huge responsibility, and a massive amount of work. It boggles the mind how much work it could be. But I'm just focusing on the good right now ;)

Anyways, waiting is amazingly painful. I was told I would hear back from them before the end of the week, but that it wouldn't take them very long to make a decision. That was Monday afternoon. I was, secretly, hoping for a phone call yesterday. Alas, it never came, but I was silly to expect them to get back to me that fast. It's now the middle of the week, and two days later, and I am seriously jumping every time the phone rings.

It's a conspiracy. I bet people and organisations already know whether or not they want you days before they call you. They make you wait to see whether or not you can stand the constant heart-rushed and palpitations whenever the phone rings. To stress you out, and make you sit in limbo for as long as possible.

It's even made worse by my particular situation. I want to give my current employer two weeks notice as per the professional thing to do, even though legally I am not bound to do so. If I don't know by today or tommorrow, I may have a week where I am employed by both groups, and that would just suck. It's such a dilemna.

I haven't lost faith though, I know this position is perfect for me. It came to me the way that it did because I am meant for it, and because the universe wants it for me. I just wish I could have confirmation and get this thing going already. I can't wait until I can do the job, so just call me already ! Gawd.

TESTING, TESTING.

Ok, do this test ! DO IT ! I wanna know what y'all get. I scored a 46. Which I cannot decide is a good or bad thing. I guess its neither, It's just my personality. It's kinda freaky how accurate it is. Give me your results in your comments PLZ :D


Try this! Below is Dr Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends. The person who sent it placed their score in the e-mail subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends (send it back to the person who sent it to you.) Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. It's only 10 simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper,keeping track of your letter answers to each question.

1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon & and early evening c) late at night

2. You usually walk... a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up,looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your
legs stretched out or straig ht d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you... a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...... a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most? a) red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) str etched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d)
with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

Why would you do that to me ??

Sunday nights are usually my restful, relaxation nights. I sit down with a cup 'o tea and a good novel and read for an hour until 9pm, when Desperate Housewives comes on, then I watch Grey's Anatomy and go to bed.

Not so much this Sunday. First of all, Desperate Housewives was an amalgamation of horrible, unrealistic and annoying events. I am soo pissed off with the son, Andrew Van de Kamp, who is simply the most retched human being on the planet. Not only has he clearly driven his mother to the verge of a drinking problem, but he is bordering on mentally abusing her. That just pissed me off so much I wanted to turn off the TV. Then, the rest of the show was a complete bore, interspersed with an another tragedy for Susan Meyer with her doctor/jerk of a boyfriend. She deserves better. And, of course, then there was the stereotypical attempt at addressing a political issue with the woman hired at Lynette's firm who still breastfead her 5 year-old child. Not only was that disguisting, but it sucked as any sort of plot-line.

After all this, I was overwhelmingly excited to finally see Meredith. Grey's Anatomy never disappoints, it always has a rich plot line, with a perfect sprinkling of sarcastic wit and humour, and a touch of sexual tension. The perfect combo for any episode. I think it is the epitome of prime-time television.

So after all the wait and excitement, guess what ? It turns out to be a rerun from the freaking beginning of the season ! Why, praytell, would you give me a rerun in the middle of a new season ? WHYYYYY ??!!

I'm soo upset, it has ruined the start of my week.

Perfect Balance

I am sooo amazingly, awesomely, fantabulously happy today. Today rocks. It feels like my life has come into a perfect equilibrium and balance has been reached.

It all started this morning with yoga, I'm getting much better at is, and I am really starting to enjoy it. Then, I came home and got an email that contained good news about my secret (see previous post). I was getting all depressed about the lack of postings for new jobs on the Co-op webpage, and then BAM today there are craploads. Two of which are with Ministries. One is with the Ministry of Advanced Education and is for an economic research position. HELLO ! It's the first posting for someone in only second year of Economics ! It's practically got my name written all over it. It's kinda humerous how the day after such a crummy day as yesterday could be so awesome and full of joy. Life rocks once again. I'm also on my fourth, yes (4th), cup of coffee, so maybe that has something to do with it. I'm even studying Multivariable Calculus and the Simplex Method and I'm finding it kinda fun. Let my tell you something though, calling a method the "Simplex Method" sure makes it sound a hell of a lot easier than it actually is. I wonder if there is a group of people somewhere who market these names for mathematical methods to make them sounds easier or more fun than they actually are ? Ok, I've totally rambled now. But I honestly don't care :P

I don't wanna talk about it.

I'm not feeling that great today, I'm overcome with negativity and strong self-loathing. Everything seems to be going wrong today, and in my life. I can't find anyone to cover a shift for me on my mom's birthday, I haven't gotten a single interview, and I just feel really down. It feels like not only today, but in general, my plans are falling apart. My plan for the summer was a Co-op position, that's not happening, there is time left, but why bother ? It's not like anyone has even wanted to interview me, let alone give me a job. I applied at a bank, also haven't heard from them. I feel overwhelmingly rejected, as though the support that I have always felt from the universe has been swept away. I've always believed that there is a guiding force, and to just trust. I feel as though that force has abandoned me. I can't stand school anymore, I should be studying for a midterm but I don't care, so I'm not. I kinda just wanna die.

The Hunt Continues ...

Update on my Co-op hunting status:

There is the most perfect position in the world open right now, it closes in 2 days, and not a single person has applied for it yet !

It's in Cambell River, which is VERY remote and an insanely long drive from where I am. I don't mind that so much, because my mom knows someone there who has a friend who could rent me there basement suite. The position itself is amazing, its a Research Assistant with the Vancouver Island Health Authority, working with their study on aboriginal health issues. You have to have database experience, good analytical skills, and able to work as a team member. I am swimming in these and other skills.

So, whats the problem you ask... glad ya did ! ;)

See, my mom is finishing her Master's degree in Applied Communication, and therefore she needs me from time to time to babysit my 9 year-old brother. She plans on working full-time when she graduates, and therefore she will need me to babysit a lot for July and August when school is out for him. This means that if I move she would have to hire a full-time babysitter, or else have him stay with other family a lot, which isn't very healthy for him, and is also kinda expensive. Yes, I know that was a run-on sentence. So for that reason, I don't think I can move this summer for a position. It would be fine if the position was in September, because my brother would have school, and in fact, I plan on being a little more aggressive in looking for a September internship, cause then I would be able to move for 4 months.

It's just soo annoying that I have these responsibilities that are taking me away from what could be a great opportunity for me build experience towards a career. It makes me mad, but I also would feel mean and selfish if I told my mom I was applying anyways, and would leave if I got it. This sort of situation happens to me a lot. I'll get over it. It's just too bad.

My Beautiful Face !!!

I'm just full of good luck this week. I rushed to my esthetician to get my brows waxed before my interview yesterday, which I turned down anyways. Long story short, the job was dumb. Anyways, so I went to go see her, and she warned me that my brows might be a little "inflamed" because of the acne medication I'm on (Accutane). Today I wake up, and it looks horrid. I have been told I have burnt the epidermis of my skin, and that it could "possibly scar", the scariest two words in the english language. Here are some gruesome images for you:

trust me this looks a whole lot worse in real life.
Also, I look dazed because I just got out of my shower.

Woot

I got an interview !
I got an interview !

WEEEEEEEEEEE !

As you can prolly tell, I got an interview with one of the companies I applied for a Co-op position at. The company is West Corporation, and they are only about 10 min drive from my house, woot !

Anyways, the annoying thing is that they are my fall-back job, because I would much rather work with one of the Ministries, but alas, this would be acceptable. They are my first interview, and so I might have to accept a job offer from them before I even hear back from my other jobs, which is annoying. Damn timing! Anyways, it seems like a perfectly fine job, so I think I'll be fine, it's a good start. They have an "info" session that I have to go to tommorrow morning and then my interview is at 11:20am, which means I have to miss one class, and I'll be late for another one, but meh. It's just Stats and Calculus, whatever.

The point is, I might ACTUALLY have a Co-op position this summer, how fabulous !


UPDATE :

After the "info" session, I went to my interview and told them thank you, but I was not interested in the job, its not much better pay, and its a call centre. Ew.

It (hopefully) begins...

Not as dramatic of a title as it could have been. I had my last Co-op workshop today. We had a guest speaker from the BC Ministry of Advanced Education. He was clearly nervous at the beginning but as we asked questions it softened him up and he clearly became a lot more comfortable. It was an intense two hours of us sucking him dry of any information he had that we could use to our advantage. The government here accounts for about 60% of all Co-op placements, so you can understand our enthusiasm, plus Co-op is fairly competitive. fairly being an understatement. He also said that most of the senior managers and advisors in the government are expected to be retiring in the next 5-8 years, and that now is the best time ever to try to get into government work. I want to work all my four Co-op placements with the government if I can, because I want to work for them once I'm done my degree. All the jobs that I have applied to, I've told them this on the cover letter. I'm totally excited about my prospects and I applied to two more postings today, and plan on applying to another tommorrow. That will bring the number I have applied for to six, but I have yet to get an interview. Well, they haven't even closed yet so I shouldn't worry.

On another note, I went into work today to get a coffee and my new schedule. Steph was closing for the first time with Anthony, who isn't the hardest worker or best closer, but meh. There was something off about Steph, I couldn't place my finger on it, but I think something was bothering her. Anyways, maybe I'm just being paranoid.

Aren't you suppose to rest on Sundays ?

Ok, so I decided a long tittle while ago that I needed to take every Sunday off from work. This worked well, as then I could concentrate on schoolwork and other stuff that never gets done during the week. I essentially bought myself some more catch-up time, cause I'm always just catching-up to what I'm suppose to be doing.

Well, today I realised that I never actually rest or relax on Sunday, except tonight when I will take 2 hours to myself and watch Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. In fact, Sundays have quickly become one of my busiest days of the week, right after Monday. I generally have school for about 8 hours on Monday, and then I go to work for 6 hours, so Mondays win.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining at all, it's just interesting to note that this has happened. For example, today, I need to apply for two Co-op postitions, email one of my instructors about something, start and complete an entire Calculus assignmnet, and drive 45 mins to school to complete a Statistical Economics assignment.

This being said, I'm also one of those people that hates being lazy or inefficient, so keeping constantly busy like this seems to be a sick way that I ensure I am always running at maximum efficiency. Anyways, I had better get going and make some coffee, mmmm coffee. I am soo totally addicted, but that's a whole other post.

P.S. That graph is of the basic first-year theory of Allocative Efficiency in Economics, seemed relevant.

Emotional Morning

Today was good, but my morning was like something stright out of a TV sitcom:

I wake up and its snowing, it NEVER snows here. I hate snow sooo much, it represents cold, and cold is evil, it can kill you.

My car was running on fumes this morning, so I stopped at the Chevron on my way to school. I was already running late for my 8:30am class, but I didn't have enough to get me to UVic. I pulled up to a ... what do you call them ? stall ? ok, well lets call it a "gas stall", anyways, I pulled up to the "gas stall" and got my credit card handy. Right before I put it in, the "gas pumping machine" starts talking to me, I must have jumped at least 5 feet into the air. Don't talk to me if your an innatimate object at freaking 8am!!

Anyways, it's the man inside the gas station telling me that the pump is not working today. So I get back into my car and turn around to get into another stall-thingy; this old lady in a new red Toyoto Cambry ( I hate Toyotas with a passion, I'm a proud Honda-er) speeds up and pulls right into the stall before me. I was sooo fuming mad I almost hit her car out of spite.

So by now there is a big line-up forming for these "stalls". I finally get one, and pull up, when I go to undo my gas-hole-lid-thingy (I apparently don't have a high gasoline-related vocabulary), I realise that I had already undid it at the first stall and that I must've put it on the trunk like I always do. So, its missing. At this point I was ready to sit down and cry. Luckily, the gas station manager comes out, he introduced himself and said that he had noticed my predicament (a.k.a. they were watching me inside and laughing), and that he had found the gas-hole-lid-thingy on his walk to my car. I was soo thankful, then he gave me a coupon for $5 in gas because he saw that lady steal my "gas stall". My eyes actually got teary. I thanked him, inserted my credit card and pumped away (that sentence sounded dirty), I decided that I would use the card later to just top off the tank, but I wanted to get a full tank right now.

Just as I am leaving Sidney and am too far away to turn back and have any hope of ever making it to class anywhere near on-time I realise I forgot the gas-coupon-card-thingy on top of the pump. Normally, this would've sent me into a little bit of a swearing rampage. I was oddly calm. The manager had been soo nice and thoughtful that I decided it was the thought that counted and that I really didn't care that I can't use it, but I do care that he gave it to me. This sounds really bad, but I am just not used to members of the public treating me with any respect. I'm just used to serving them at work, or just seeing them on the streets. It was soo heart-warming to think that I could screw up soo much at something and someone didn't want to yell at me for it, they wanted to make me feel better. Then I cried, while driving in the snow at 8am to my calculus class.

Study, meh I'll watch TV

hehe. So I'm watching Voyager right now. If anyone reading this knows the show, its the episode with the Krenem, the ones with the huge ship that changes the space-time continuum. It's such a good two-part episode, with soo many ethical arguments.

Anyways, so I have a Public Finance course tommorrow. Meh, It's not too hard of a course, I can prolly get a fairly good mark with what little studying I have done. I am going to study a bit more, and then get up at 6:45am, ARGH.

Work is getting weird. Tara, another supervisor, is prolly going to quit, leaving us even more short-staffed. It's all because of our stupid Assistant Manager, he is incompetent and foolish. It's unfortunate how one person can completely disrupt and destroy a group of functioning individuals. Anyways, so I might have a Co-op position this summer. I'm not getting my hopes up, so I'm not talking about it, but it might go through. The thing is, do I want it ?

Are You Kidding Me !?

Picture this, me happily sleeping away, drooling a little out of the side of my mouth.
then, WHAM !

My cell phone starts blaring "Take Me Out"; and of course I'm cursing the fact that my phone was even left on overnight, let alone the fact that someone has the ordassity to call me at 6am on Sunday.

Guess who it was ?

That's right ! Work !

I didn't answer the phone, but had a god-awful time trying to get back to sleep. I think I dreamt about dancing to that song actually, hrm.. yeah, I'm sure I was dancing to it in my dream later.

Anyways, I called back later at a more reasonable hour (10am), to see what all the fuss was about. Apparently, our manager never bothered to schedule a third person to come in at 7am. This is not a good thing, because that person needs to help them prepare for the morning rushes. More importantly, without the third person on, no one can take a break, because it's rediculous to leave one employee alone on the floor at Starbucks, its just a dumb idea, and also against policy.

Anyways, so I said "ummm....no" in a voice that clearly indicated that I wanted to tell them where they could shove something. If it wasn't for the fact that one of my favourite people to work with was the one calling I would have been much meaner.

Besides that glorious start to my day, it's been good so far. I'm still working on multi-variable calculus, because the assignment is harder than I thought it would be. It's gonne be a good day.

Much Better

I feel a million times better today. I feel like I could conquer the world today. So, I have been! I went out and got more Accutane, bought some awesome bagels and organic cream cheese for breakfast. I'm half-way done my math assignment, and I even emailed the professor because I think there is a mistake on it. She put two equations on the assignment that kinda make no sense. I'm going to work on my scholarship application now for a mental break. Today rocks !

I have also rediscovered my obsession with World War II propoganda posters, they just make you feel so gung-ho, I want one for my room.

I MUST stay in school, its important to my country !

...If she can do it, I sure can !

I MUST save my money this summer, and work even harder, people have given up much more than I have in their lives, I can totally do it !

NO MORE PROCRASTINATION, I must work hard NOW !

Silence

OMG, I've been soo busy the last couple of days, it's been rediculous.

I had the worst day in history at work today. I was yelled at by two customers, one of whom was a regular. They were both the meanest, nastiest people I've had to deal with in almost 4 years working in customer service. It was rediculous !

I'm applying for a scholarship tommorrow, well today technically since it's past midnight here. I need to go to bed and read my book and fall asleep. Also, tommorrow I am starting and completing (in the same day, hopefully :D) a huge Math 103 assignment. It's my last math class ever that I will have to take, but I have to get a really good mark in it. Also, I have to study for a midterm coming up in my public finance class. Gee golly gosh, I should get to bed, I'm soo excited about having a weekend off from work, to just go and work on school, weee ! I'm such a dork !

I think I will apply for another Co-op postition with the Ministry of the Environment, they have an opening for a research assistant. I am also considering applying to work at a company out here called West Corporation, they are worldwide, and are a call center. The one here deals mostly with Sprint and Singular cellular customers from the USA. I might be able to do a C-op position with them, I'm totally overqualified for the work, but it pays well. I could also just tell them I'm taking a break from school and I wanna work full-time for a bit, and then leave in 4 months saying I've changed my mind. Ha, they would prolly hate me. Meh, I want a reference, so maybe I'll be upfront from the get-go, so as to not leave a bad impression. Then again, people can change their minds. hehe.

Anyways,
command: initiate='hard-working program'

program found

enter acess code: ******
acess code approved

initiating ...

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command: program=run

beginning bootup process
process complete

running...
ENGAGE HARD WORK !

Always the Skeptic

Well, I haven't been blogging much because I've been uber busy working on applying for Co-op positions. In the midst of it all, I got a job offering from a company. So, I say to myself, what's the catch ?

Well, the company is based in Nashville, Tennesee; It's called Southwestern and they publish children's learning books, CD's, high school study guides and much more. Now, I was kind of skeptical at first, because you have to relocate for the entire summer, and you are selling books, but its a very renowned company. There are Senators that worked for them in they're youth, that and other things made me feel more confident. I went to a "Corporate Spotlight" today, it was a great lunch at a really nice restaurant. There is an intense 4 interview process, they don't so much want you to have experience with sales or anything, but they want to make sure you have the right personality.

I appreciated that the woman hosting it was honest too. She said its a great opportunity for the summer, and the money is amazing, but the work is hard. Their summer interns work about 60-80 hours a week. There also is no guaranteed salary, you earn commission, nothing else, so if you don't sell anything, you get nothing. The sales experience looks amazing, and they often promote people the area sales managers for next summer if you want to return.

They are supported by UVic's Co-op program and the university's Co-op co-ordinator told me she knows many students who worked with Southwestern in the summer, and she hasn't ever heard any complaints beyond it being hard work.

I am intrigued and therefore have started they're rigurous interview process. The recruiter said that they will have to chose 40 people from Victoria from about 400 applicants. Therefore, she said, we shouldn't be disappointed if we are rejected.

Anyways, I'm off to go work on an online assignment, and then maybe read before bed. Argh, I have an 8:30am class tommorrow. How inhumane.

UPDATE:

I didn't go through with the interview process, who wants to sell books all summer long ??

What the Hell is falling from the sky ?

So, it's bloody cold here. I live on the West Coast of Canada, we don't get temperatures below 0 celcius. Well, not normally.

It's snowing, yes, that's right, snowing. Not the pussy, timid, almost-rain sort of snow we sometimes get, but actual gigantic monolithic-sized flakes of doom.

It's sooo cold, I ran (and by ran, I mean drove) to Starbucks to get a latte and dropped off a rented DVD, and after only 20 minutes or so of exposure, my limbs are almost numb.

The Weather Channel says its -2 with the wind-chill. AAAH !

I'm gonna go and turn on the fireplace, sit infront of it, and work on my application for a summer Co-op term. Ah, how I envie summer.

Welcome to the Customer Relations Department

Ok, so you all know and love me, but now I want you to tell me what you really think of me. Please fill in a Johari Window for me. It's a tool created in the 1950's for self-reflection, and I'm excited to find out exactly what mine will look like.

This feels a bit like the How are we doing ? cards they have at stores, or the customer comment cards that I have at work. I want you all to be completely truthful !

Seriously, I won't be hurt at all, so be truthful, since this is an exercise is self-discovery. If you want to, and I would encourage you to, do a Nohari Window, which is the same, only its all negative words.

Thanx to whomever does this :D

Also, Thanx to QatarCat for the idea ;)

Trapped in the 90's

Today I had to drop off my brother at school, because my mom got called into work at the Inn (She works as a front desk manager part-time) for the early shift, which she never does, in order to cover some sick woman. Therefore, I had to get my lazy butt out of bed at like 7am this morning, which was evil considering I worked until late last night and the fact I have Reading Break this week, so I should be allowed to sleep in.

So, while I'm driving my brother to school, I'm trying to find a channel on the radio that I like. I should explain that I have XM Satellite Radio in my car, so I have a choice of about 100 channels, and they are all theme-based. I tried the Top 20 channel, nope don't like rap. Then tried Channel 22, which is also modern hits, nope, not in the mood for Linkin Park. I went through about 10 channels, before I at last admitted what I've been fearing is true for the past little while. The only channel that I can be guaranteed to never have to change and that I will almost always like the music on, is the 90's hits channel.

Great, its a fact, I'm stuck in the 90's.



This conclusion makes a lot of sense now that I think about it. I've always had a thing for the Star Trek episodes from the 90's, particulary Deep Space Nine and Voyager, but also The Next Generation. I love the 90's sort of optomistic view of the world, and the fabulous, toned-down 80's-style attire. I love the big hair of the early 90's and the female power-suit-wearing executives of that era. I miss great one-hit bands like Chumbawumba, and longer-lasting wonders like The Backstreet Boys and Brittany Spears (before she was a slut). I miss the real right of free speech that existed then, and the idea that the world was moving ethically forward, not backwards like the last couple years. I see the beginning of the 21st Century as a step back on what we accomplished, socially, in the 90's.


I miss the TV of the 90's (besides Star Trek, which I already talked about), like the Golden Girls, Full House, The X Files, and other non-reality shows. I am soo sick of reality TV, ok so it was really cool at first, and I will always be a sucker for The Apprentice, but who cares about most of it now. The Bachelor, America's Next Top Model, Switching Spouses, and other rediculously dumb or past-their time shows such as Survivor, need to be put down. All that they do is fill the void in our hearts from shows that showed us what the perfect family could be like. Shows that taught us lessons, like Family Matters. I think the only reality TV should be that which existed before Survivor, like Wheel of Fortune, that was a great show, or Celebrity Squares.



What about the movies ? Gawd, the movies from the 90's were good. I mean it was the decade of The First Wives club, Miss Congeniality, American Beauty, BraveHeart, Dances with Wolves, Forest Gump, The Matrix, Schindler's List, Silence of the Lambs, Titanic, and Pulp Fiction ! I think it can be said, with no reasonable objection, that overall, the movies of the 90's were the best of any decade.

Anyways, I'm most definately stuck in the 90's, but aren't we all ? Who doesn't miss the optomism of the future that existed then ? Who doesn't miss the great, albeit cheesy, family shows ? Who doesn't miss the great styles and the fabulous fashion of the time ?

Remember bigger is always better !

Grey's Anatomy

"I've heard that we all grow up eventually, I've just never met anyone who actually has."

-Meredith from Grey's Anatomy

Tonight's episode of Grey's Anatomy was a far cry from the extreme suspense of the last two, however, I loved it as always. I fear that Meredith will end up breaking poor O'Malley's heart. She finally succumbs to his love for her (or does she?) at the end of tonights episode, leaving a typical cliff-hanger until next week. I hope that she either doesn't go through with it, or that he refuses her. We all know that she isn't right for him, nor he for her, but also, there is no possible happy ending to what began tonight. She will end up hurting him. So sad, he's such a nice guy.

This guy named Michael has been contacting me a lot recently. He's in town for his University's reading break, which happens to coincide with mine. So we both have a week off. I went on two dates with him, last summer I believe, when he used to go to Uvic as well. Hrm, I don't know if we should hang again though. It's all so confusing, he's one of those people that is hard to read, but really cute, so you hope the best. haha, I sooo over-analyse things.

I have Power !

Yay,

So after that stupid storm last night knocked off our power at like 11pm, I ahve been in a bubble of isolation. I couldn't write about on my blog, because no internet, I couldn't watch TV, or have a hot shower, or read a book, or even make some tea. I ended up playing a computer game on my laptop, but the game had power-draining graphics and so I had to end it early cause my battery was dying. ARGH.

Anyways, the power is back now, I have to reset my clock from its blinking "12:00", or maybe I'll be lazy and leave it like that. I have to have bloodwork done today for the Accutane, I hate having my blood drawn, its such a weird experience. Well, I don't ate it, I mostly dislike it, what I hate is not being able to eat for 12 hours beforehand. I'm STARVING.

Anyways, then it's off to run some errands, do some banking, and go to work from 4pm-midnight. I get to work with Steph, which is awesome potatoes! Hrm, this is the most boring blog entry I think I have ever written. If you read this and yawn, I won't blame you.

Kinda miss it.

Just thought I would share some of the things they are building in Dubai right now. Thanks to Qatarcat for the inspiration.

• Ski Dubai


• The Palm


• Burj Al Arab


• Mall of the Emirates

Two of these had been started when I left, but none of them had been finished while I was there. I seriously miss aspects of living there, but I also remember hating aspects of living there. Namely the racism, the social problems and the sandstorms.

Nevertheless, I've decided that when I'm done my degree I'm going to get a contract and move back there.

UPDATE:

It's suppose to be -14c with the wind chill here tommorrow. There are wind warnings for tonight, and I'm suppose to expect to loose power. I hat winter, this just provides more motivation. I need to go somewhere warm. GAWD, its cold out.

V. Day = stupid

Hrm, So I'm most definately hungover this morning. But I wasn't really drunk last night. weird.

So, to spite V. Day and all of its evil connentations, I went out with Steph and some fabulous friends of Steph's, except one guy that nobody knew, I think his name was Michael or something (maybe Jonathan), he was a BORE, so introverted, I hate introverted people. Anyways, We went to Ferris' Oyster Bar & Grill. It was great food, huge portions (they were like American sized) and fabulous drinks. "We" was myself and a bunch of fabulous friends of Steph's, except one guy that nobody knew, I think his name was Michael or something (maybe Jonathan), he was a BORE, so introverted, I hate introverted people. Meaghan (Steph's friend) and I shared a pitcher of Margeritas, mmmm, as well as other drinks...

So, about half-way through the night, I realise that I'm on medication that damages your liver, so your not suppose to have ANY alcohol while on it. Hrmm, woopsie. Since I had been drinking for quite some time, I figured I might as well just stick to it and keep on drinking. I believe that is why I feel soo oddly hungover today. My head hurts, and my stomach is none too happy.

We went to this bar/club last night called Hugo's. It was the worst decision ever. The server bitch was just that, a bitch. The guys were ALL ugly. And as Meaghan pointed out, almost all the bar was men, and not a single non-unfortunate one among them. The depression truly sunk in when we all realised that the hot men weren't there because this is all that is left of the single-male spawning pool, all the fish that are too ugly or dumb to have been caught yet. Lemme tell ya, that was not the happiest moment of my life. Although, I must say that hanging out with some great people and going out was a wonderful idea, and the fact that it was yet another V. Day of singleness aside, I had loads of fun.

I drove home, also prolly not a good idea, and I collapsed on my bed. I think got my laptop and proceded to just chat randomly on messenger. It was about then that I realised, at just after midnight on V. Day, that I was completely alone and surrounded by ugly single men. And besides our group, most of the single women were pretty ugly too.

*sigh* whatever, single life rocks, just not one day of the year. But we rocked that day anyways !

Undergrads is back !

One of my favourite shows in Animated history is back !

For those of you who have spent your entire lives under a rock of self-induced boredom, I'm talking about Undergrads! It's an animated show following the lifes of some undergrad students living in univeristy dorms. Soo funny, also very politically incorrect at times. Scarily truthful though. This entire episode is about one character's quest to get into a bar to get this girl he loves, since its set in the US (with their stupid 21 drinking age), and he needs to pretend he knows what he's doing.

Omg, then he roomate is hilarious, he tries and help him, but he's a drunken idiotic fool, and ends up walking away saying "I have no idea what I'm doing, seeya Guy, I'm off for my afternoon sex."

And then he has to teach his other friend, who is quitting drinking, to learn how to consume beverages that aren't made up of alcohol:

"What the hell is this stuff, its bland and nasty !"

"It's called water."

"waaaattteeerr ?"

"yes"

Anyways, It's prolly one of those things that you need to be watching it to fully understand the humour. I felt like sharing that.

I am Zombie Jesus!

Mind Wandering

So, here I am, watching Desperate Housewives. The SECOND best show in the world. Grey's Anatomy being the best, naturally.

Anyways, so this is a pointless rant. I rather enjoy these. I've been thinking a lot about my life today, about where I am, what am I doing. I agree with myself, that I have taken the best road, and (for the most part) made the best decisions. However, I also am disappointed with myself for sometimes being a little lazy. I sometimes think that I could try harder at school, and I could try harder at finding the perfect person, and I could try to enjoy life more.

I think that this all coincides with my turning 20. Yes, for most people that is a young age, but there are millionares and successful business tycoons who had already launched they're careers at that age. I'm nowhere near that sort of career-launching capacity right now, I can barely get out of bed to study on Sundays !

I think that the whole finding the "perfect person" thing can be put on ice right now. I'm realistic, I can focus on the rest of my life first, and hopefully that will fall into place at some later time. Or not, its not as if I've always subscribed to the notion of every person having a soulmate, its just not something I really believe, although I most certainly still believe in love.

The point is, there are a lot of things I want for myself, and things I want to accomplish in my life, and I'm not sure I'm moving fast enough in order to do these things.

Wait ! Am I being skin-deep ? Selfish ? Should I devote myself to tireless volunteer work and endevour to make the world a better place? Hrm, yes and no.

Anyways, I can't wait to start off my ACTUAL career, then I won't mind working 60 hours a week, or even 70.

Wait. But isn't my studying intensely right now a huge factor in my payoff in the end? Isn't it a little ironic to say I'll work harder when the stakes are higher ? I need to be putting 110% into every little assignment, test, project and lab that I do TODAY. No better way to improve your probability of a good outcome tommorrow, than to work your ass off right now !

I love it when I just let my mind wander, I come to the best realisations. This was just what I needed, I was losing momentum, and now I have it back !

Now, if you will excuse me, I'm off to go and study.

Only 6 months to go !

Ok, so here's the deets:

I wake up this morning and get in the shower, afterwards my mom tells me that work called. hrm, odd, I'm already working a full 8 hours today, they can't be calling me in early, so what do they want ?

I call them back, and lo-and-behold, Lindsay, my other closer, has called in sick. Huh, bet she's just hungover, meh. Oh, but now I am short staffed for about 4 hours tonight. greeeat. So, essentially work has called to just let me know that I am royally screwed tonight, cause no one is availlable to cover. Why can't they just tell me that when I get to work, so I don't know until then ?? Cause frankly, I don't give much of a rat's behind that they are "working" on it, and it ruins my morning.

Also, I had taken a day off next week because I had a midterm the next day that I had to study for, my manager forgot or didn't realise that I had requested that day off, and scheduled me to work anyways. Well, guess what ?? It's happened again. I asked for Feb 25 off, because my mom is going out with one of her best friends (Shari) that day to celebrate Shari's birthday. I got sceduled to work anyways. Weeee !

I got into the Co-op program at Uvic, as many of you are aware, so I'm planning on doing my first workterm in Sept. This means I will have to either demote myself and work only part-time at Starbucks, while I work 9-5 at a nice degree-related career job; Or I get to quit Starbucks forever.

I'm leaning a LOT more towards the latter of the two options. I am just fed up of working somewhere that I'm paid peanuts to do not only my job but a lot of other manager's jobs too. THEN, whenever I ask for days off I'm seen as being lazy, because I only work 25hrs/week since I'm a full-time University student, or I'm just not given them, because the manager's above me are incompetent.

I'm soooo quitting in 6 months....

Only 6 months away....

6 months....

I'm BAAAAAK !

Holla !

So my blog is back, yay !

The stupid republishing process has some bugs and randomly it messes severly with blog templates, thats why my blog was sooo fucked up for the last couple of days. I think it was a sign from the gods that I needed some time away from distractions, so I could focus on my school work.

Speaking of which, I Just did the most rediculously hard Econ 246 midterm, that class is soo freaking confusing sometimes, however, it wasn't as bad as I feared it was going to be.

SO.... since I have only one more midterm and Reading Break is soooo close, I decided to have a fun day ! I bought new Club Monaco jeans and a hawt new sweater from RW&Co. Look out Stacy and Clinton, I'm the new fashion police ! (from What not to Wear on TLC)

So yeah, Weee !

Filthy/Gorgeous - Scissor Sisters

When you're walkin' down the street
And the man tries to get your business
And the people that you meet
Want to open you up like Christmas
You gotta wrap your fuzzy in a big red bow
Ain't no sum bitch gonna treat me like a ho
I'm a classy honey kissy huggy lovey dovey ghetto princess

Cuz you're filthy Oooh, and I'm gorgeous:
You're disgusting Oooh, and you're nasty
And you can grab me oooh, cuz you're nasty

When you're runnin' from a trick
And you trip on a hit of acid
You gotta work for the man
But your biggest moneymakers' flaccid
You gotta keep your shit together
With your feet on the ground
There ain't noone gonna listen
If you haven't made a sound
You're an acid junkie college flunky dirty puppy daddy bastard

Cuz you're filthy Oooh, and I'm gorgeous:
You're disgusting Oooh, and you're nasty
And you can grab me oooh, cuz you're nasty