I was actually SO bored yesterday after my class, that I did this to pass the time.
How sad is that ?
| You Passed 8th Grade Math |
 Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct! |
Ok, so after my traumatic experience with my old esthetician, I simply went to a new one. She was an old friend in High School, and just started at the high-end Aveda salon I (and Steph) go to. She was wonderful. I naturally got the redness afterwards, so she put on a lovely Chanel liquid foundation to hide the redness until it fades later tonight. I am impressed with the results, my brows don't look "done" but rather just sculpted. It's fabulous.
We also talked about a wonderful film we both rented this weekend (we apparently think alike) called Match Point, it is simply wonderful. Everyone who reads this should go out and rent it. The film is a perfect British thriller. It starts as an off-beat romantic plot, that quickly turns from lovely to eerie to downright disturbing. I loved it. Simply the best movie since the Oscars.
The film also inspired a change of hair for me. That and the new job, where it will be necesary to look better. It will also be easier to upkeep good hair, Less steam, heat and such. Since I have stereotypical male mousy brown British hair that never wants to do what it is told and is annoyingly straight with a weird curl at the back, a British hairstyle will be perfect. I no longer wish to constantly colour my hair more interesting colours, but will acknowledge my boring colour and work with it. Plus, my hair and wallet will be less damaged without the colourings. To the point, the styles are mostly inspired by one of the male characters in the movie, Chris Wilton (played by Jonathan Rhys Meyers). His hair is perfect, can't you just see me with this hair ?
[Obviously the one on the left]
Ok, so let's start with the oldest information first, which makes no sense. I hate being chronological anyways !
I'm literally on cloud nine. I got called on Thursday for a second interview at RBC (Royal Bank of Canada for you foreigners ;P). I went in at 10am on Saturday to see the Manager of Client Care for the branch. She is hilarious, we had a long conversation about how our lives would shatter if it wasn't for post-its™. Anyways, so the 'interview' was actually just her asking me what my availlability would be for July and August and if I have a way to get downtown to do the first 4 weeks of training. I was pretty exstatic. She then told me that pending a criminal record check, I am effectively hired. I should expect my job offer letter and package in the mail by the end of this week coming up. I am a mixture of relief and excitement. It's funny though, after all these months of complaining about how dumb my current job is, I feel very reserved about telling people the news. I am afraid of being a jerk at work by seemingly rubbing it in people's noses. So, I'm only telling the people I am friends with. I have no idea wether or not I am going to quit Starbucks or stay on part-time. We'll just have to see.
In other news, WHAT WAS WITH THE SEASON FINALE OF BATTLESTAR GALACTICA !? If anyone out there watches the show as well, please tell me what the hell they were thinking by these new twists ?? Effectively, the idiot that almost made the entire human race extinct was elected President of the Colonies. He then procedes to settle the surviving ships on New Caprica, which is the dumbest idea ever ! Then the Cylons come a year later, and almost everyone is going to die except Odama and his son, because they were the only ones smart enough to stay on the two Battlestars, so they could jump away. Idiotic fools ! They had better make some things right in the next season, or else I don't see how humanity isn't going to go extinct.
In related news, which actually isn't at all, I took yet another online test. This time it was to find out what kind of coffee I am. The results were surprisingly accurate. Not only do I usually drink just espresso with some hot water and a little cream, but it seems to have gotten my personality perfectly ! This one was definately more accurate than the 'abnormal' one. Oh, and for you Starbucks™ gurus, they spell Frappuccino™ wrong if you get it as your answer. I almost cried.
And the results are:
| You Are an Espresso |
 At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high |
| You Are 44% Abnormal |
 You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
My life is brilliant,
My love is pure,
I saw an angel,
of that I'm sure... WAIT !
I just realised, while listening to James Blunt, that I have never been in love. I mean, I have dated, and had relationships with men, but I've never been in love. The sort of love that grabs you, and makes you do stupid things, never experienced it. Makes it kinda hard to listen to love songs without thinking your missing out somehow.
So, I got a 'wink' from someone on Hi5, one of the websites I have a profile on. He's cute, so I sent one back with my messenger address, but I don't expect much. I've kind of become anti-love. It's not that I don't wish for it, but I think I secretly don't want it. I mean, it will just distract from my work and school, and take up precious time, right ? lame argument, I know.
Perhaps this is just yet another defense mechanism I have. I never knew what a real loving relationship was, the only ones I ever experienced through my parental units were disfunctional at best. My mom'd first husband, my dad, died in an accident, and then her second husband was physically abusive, and then my current stepdad is an emotional wreck. He loves her, but there are so many cultural issues and mental health issues with him that it interferes. Hence, they have been seperated since we moved back to Canada, almost five years ago. He still lives in Dubai, because he is from there. I think they never got a formal divorce because some part of my mom still loves him, dispite the majority of her soul that hates his guts. I never liked him. We never got along, and we never will. I sometimes blame myself for their break-up, because I was so very honest about how I didn't like him. Then again, maybe I was just symptomatic of their realtionship. The last two years before we moved back, they didn't even sleep in the same house. He lived in the guest house, we lived in the main villa. So, clearly it was more than just me, right?
I miss our lifestyle when they were together, thats for sure. I'm pretty sure thats why they stayed together as long as they did, that and for my little brother. He didn't really care that much about me, because I wasn't his blood son, but my brother is. International marriages suck, because he is in another country, especially one that is so patriarchal, we will never get any sort of child support. It will be a big victory if we get full custody of my brother, you know, the son he has had no contact with for five years. Makes me mad beyond all human belief.
I think this is why I am so afraid of love. I'm not sure I even believe in it. Maybe love is just a mix of bad hormones and pheremones that make you think you love the other person. A leftover from the days that we needed them to ensure procreation and survival. It certainly can mess up a life. If it hadn't of been for falling in love and getting married, my mom would have had a great TV career, since she was the first female (and first white) TV news anchor in the Middle East. She would have finished her master's degree decades ago, instead of finishing it this summer. It's impossible to tell how our lives would be different, but I imagine they would be better.
Then again, I wouldn't have the great little brother I have. He would have never of been born had it not been for her falling in love...
If love does exist out there, pretty sure I'm subconsciously avoiding it. Life is just so much simpler without those sorts of interuptions. Who needs the headache ?
[I can't believe I just talked that much about my personal feelings and family history, I've been sitting here debating whether to publish this post, or delete it for almost 10 minutes now.]
It's one in the morning, and I am exuberant. I just figured out a messy little equation, it broke down, and it was all SO simple. I was amazingly nervous for my midterm on Wednesday (which I guess is now tommorrow) because he told us there will be one question worth 40% of the test. I know exactly what that question will be. He will ask us to derive consumer surplus, producer surplus, marginal revenue, marginal profit, and the deadweight loss of a monopoly market. This is a simple task when dealing with real numbers, but he will ask us to derive it using variables in the form of A, B, C, Q and P, making it much harder. I was stumped half way through figuring out one equation, without which, I could not figure out the rest of anything. For three days the solution has eluded me. No more ! It all came together in one of those late night moments of brilliance. I love working until the wee hours of the morning. There is something about the energy late at night. It is calm, serene, and odd. I love knowing that, especially on a Monday night, almost no one in this town is awake except me.
So, there I am, listening to Celine Dion on my iPod, when the moment of clarity struck me. I feel almost high right now. I just scribbled away feverishly for about 20 minutes, with all the other equations falling into perfect order. I solved the question, and feel so much more confident about the test. But, more importantly, I triumphed ! I didn't have to go get help from him, or another student, I did it on my own. And though I know I'm a dork for being exuberant about solving a math equation for an economics question while listening to Celine Dion, I don't care. I did it !
I'm going to make it afterall !!
(I can't help it, I'm listening to cheesy music)
It' raining outside, and I'm sitting on my bed with my notebook and admiring the softness of the afternoon. I worked this morning, which is odd for me, normally I work nights. It was a nice change, I think that is one of the things I will miss when I have a regular 9-5 sorta job. I like the change of rhythm every once in a while, just as long as they are not opening shifts.
I have a midterm on Wednesday, after only 2 weeks of class, so that will be interesting. This summer class is one of those intense classes than crams what would normally be covered in 4 months into only 2 months of intense class. It's great cause you get the class and the credits of a normal class, but its over and done with sooner ! The good thing is that the prof is one of those that completely lets you know, through hinting, exactly what will be on the midterm ahead of time. The material is crazy hard, but his teaching style makes the class a less hard than it could be.
I planted my tomatoes a couple weeks ago and they have flourished. I've found this perfect little spot around the back of the house, right next to the back door, that is perfect for Roma tomatoes. The sun is really intense and hot, so they grow fash. The area is protected by the house and large bushes, so the cold winds don't get at the little seedlings. Yep, it would be a perfect spot except for the fact that I forgot to account for my mom, and her lack of gardening skills. I asked her ONCE to water them, and out of 8 plants, she managed to trample 2 with the hose and her feet. Now, I have to go and buy two more from the nursery, which will be relatively expensive, cause I saved money by buying a pack of 8 originally. Argh, I definately didn't get my green thumb from my mom.
I've always imagined myself owning my own business one day. Recently I've been wondering if I should do something related to plants. I love gardening and have really strong views on landscaping. I believe that landscaping should be done to reflect the natural habitat that the house is in. Out here, that means quaint moss-covered rocks, and large beds of wildflowers with trailing ivy and periwinkles, intermingled with large fir trees and evergreen shrubs. No one does that. Everyone here does the californian, big areas of grass with rhododenrons and almost no evergreen bushes or natural trees. Besides plumb and willow trees, there is not a non-fir tree that I think makes sense in a garden here. They loose they're leaves in the winter, at a time when we don't even get snow, and almost everything else remains green. Sigh, no one appreciates our natural plant life here, it's gorgeous. Anyways, so since I have these strong views, I was thinking I should somehow make them work for me and some sort of a business. I haven't a clue what sort of business would be possible. Ok, well now I've rambled. I'm going to go back to studying. Yay for rain, it always makes me pensive !
UPDATE:
I also have decided not to invest in the gold mining company previously stated in the post before this one. The stock market took a huge dive the other day (Thurs?) and I know enough about penny stocks to not be completely happy with the notion of putting all my savings into one. Especially when these are savings that are for my schooling. I will make my money the old fashioned way, two jobs, here I come !
I am so relaxed right now.
I just had an intense excercise/yoga session in the livingroom while my mom was off teaching this morning. It started out with ball excercises and the usual sit-ups and push-ups. Then, I realised I was late for my yoga class, so late that I would disrupt the class if I went now. So, I just stayed in the livingroom, put on some Enya, and did about 1.5 hours of awesome yoga. I feel very stretched out and relaxed. I need to start to do this every morning. I am relaxed, sore, hungry and calm. It's awesome !
I simply cannot compete with out neighbours' garden any longer. It's a long story, rich with tales of deceit, love, romance and the occasional battle. I am running late for my class at 12:30, so I will have to tell you all later, mayhap this afternoon I will update and then there will not be this gigantic cliffhanger. Speaking of which, I need to blog about the tumultuous season finale of Grey's Anatomy ~ !! TTYL !
UPDATE:
So much to update, so little attention span...
So, I am amazingly sunburnt. We (my brother and I) went to the fair that is here in out little seaside town. It was pretty cool, amazingly tiny, but still lots of fun. I literally dragged him onto the ferris wheel, which we both thoroughly enjoyed. His little friend joined us there and we all went on this twisty ride called the 'tornado', also lots of fun ! Now we're at home, and I don't wanna make dinner, but I have to, arghh. Mom's at work late tonight, so its party time for us kids. A.K.A. cheap ice cream and other things we're not normally allowed are being consumed in mass quantities.
I'm going to go study a bit and make dinner at the same time. We had an in-class surprise quiz today that I could have done much better on. The thing is, had I actually studied last night, I totally would have aced it. Another ARgH. I'm totally sore from the intense yoga this morning, but it felt so good that I'm going to do it again tommorrow, until I get my skinny flabby ass in shape !
I dropped one of my summer courses, but before I did, I had applied for a student loan for the summer. It was going to be my buffer so I could quit my current job and still be ok. Well, since I'm only doing one course right now, they won't give me any money afterall, which was ok with me until this afternoon. I got a late letter saying how much they were 'going' to give me. It was $3,683 !!! I could have gotten that freaking money and quit my job, if only I had kept the one course I was taking ! ARRrrrRGhH. It's too late for me to reregister and reapply I think, or else I would because I've only missed two of the classes since I dropped it. Maybe I will go in tommorrow and see if I can do that. I'm terribly upset now. So much lost money....
Ok, so about a year ago my uncle, whom I hate, gave me enough money to pay for me to complete my education. Naturally, he didn't give me enough money to pay for books or for living, but rather, to just cover tuition for the rest of my courses, plus a little extra in case I need to retake one or two.
Now, my mom is going to Montreal for a conference in August, which is when Montreal is famous for its sometimes scorching heat. Anyways, the city is also famous for its fashion, and my mom loves fashion. So, I want to be able to give her a couple thousand to spend on shopping, because I know she would never spend that money on herself while she is there.
This is where the debate comes in. You see, I have enough money sitting in this account to buy quite a lot of a penny stock, which would hopefully then grow by about 40 cents and earn me a couple thousand easily. The only issue is that I could also loose all the money, or a portion of it, and that would put me between a financial rock and a hard place... Usually I like hard places, but not in this situation.
This isn't just about the trip though, I really wish I could help my family out a little more financially than I can, and this would be the perfect way to give my mom a well deserved gift. I'm SO torn !
I have a couple of stocks that I like, they are in growing sectors, mostly energy and fuel companies, and they trade at least 20,000 shares a day. This means that they can increase rapidly and therefore have quick rewards. These shares have barely fallen in the last couple years, rather they have had rising trends. However, stocks like this, when they do fall, tend to fall quite quickly and badly.
I have no idea what to do. I want to start soon and open a trading account online, if and when I decide to go through with the plan. Argh, this is just SO confusing. On the one hand, I really could benefit from this investment and thrive. On the other, I could loose money and not have enough to finish my education.
Hrmm. Darn Decisions.
Ah, so Mother's Day went without a hitch. My mom quite enjoyed her present that I gave her, a collection of images from the 40's and 50's with funky affirmations on them. Her current favourite is the one that says "Why do I have to get married? I didn't do anything wrong".
I just got up about 30 minutes ago, so I'm just going to step into the shower and prepare for the day. I was so tantalized by the amazingness of the Grey's Anatomy episode last night, I could barely sleep afterwards. I'm upset that the season is almost at an end, but I also cannot wait for the end to the two part finale tonight ! I kind of suspect that Birk is going to die, I don't know why, but I suspect. Well, someone has to die, because of all the lives in the balance, it would be unrealistic and unlike Grey's Anatomy for them not to kill off one of the people. Speaking of dying, I almost cried when the restaurant manager was killed outside the hospital, usually dying doesn't affect me, but he had just had such a personality transformation from a jerk to a kind human being, what a travesty !
I have to run to UVic today and return a texbook, yay for my $105 refund ! I also need to start studying for a possible quiz tommorrow, argh. I know I have a quiz this week, I just don't know what day, which is very annoying.
I did some gardening yesterday, my backyard looks like its summer again, its all green and full of little seedlings with the hopes of being large beautiful herbs, vegetables and flowers ! Speaking of which, I planted tomatoes, and I'm not quite sure of their classification, are they a fruit or a vegetable ? just out of curiousity....
Well, that was a whole post about mostly nothing, I guess I just don't have much to say, anyways, ciao ya'lll !
I had to work until midnight last night. Suffice to say that with showering time and resting time, I wasn't asleep until about 1:30am. At eight in the f@cking morning, my next door neighbour decided it would be a great idea to sit on the street and rev his motorcycle engine. He is a mechanic at the nearby airport, and he fixed bikes and cars on the side as a hobby. Every once in a while we have to put up with loud engine noises or the smell of some chemical paint. He changed out battery for us on the car when it died and he never charged us for anything except the battery itself, so he is a nice guy, but man am I pissed off. This is about the 15th time he has decided that it would be cool to rev the motorcycle at either 7 or 8am or sometimes as late as 10pm in the summer. Which is great when you have a nine year old brother who has school in the morning, and you that has a lecture at 8:30am. My mom has mentioned it to him a couple of times, but always in her sweet casual way, so I don't think the message really got across.
Well, it got across now ! So, I am woken up by this noise at 8am, my mom was already up and my brother somehow manages to sleep through it. I should mention that there is literally no more than about 4 meters between his shop and my second-floor room, because both of our houses go almost right up to te property line on this one side. Great planning ! Anyways, so I don't even wake up properly, I just put on my sweatpants, and a sweater, march outside in bare feet along the sidewalk while the neighbours across the way are watering their garden and point right at him. He stops the engine...
"hi, I was at work until midnight last night, so it would be great if I wasn't woken up by the sound of you and your stupid motorcycle at 8am ! Don't do it again."
Starting to walk away back home, and then he yells after me.
"Maybe I would if you were polite about it."
I turned around and just gave it to him with all the engery I could muster...
"OH, that is RICH coming from you. Well, If you had to endure your stupid engine reving at least 15 times this year, I would like to see how 'polite' you would be about it ! If you don't stop, I will call the police, and I know for a fact that you are breaking a town bylaw ."
I marched away got into bed and slept until just now when I woke up. If he does it again, I'm not even going to walk over there, I'm going to call the police, quote the bylaw number that he is breaking and tell them that he has been doing it repetitively for the last 2 years. If he wants polite, then he'll get polite. The war is on Biotch !
So, the price of gold is skyrocketing. So are the profits of the firms excavating gold and those starting out. I have recently heard of a company through my coworker that is just opening its first mine in North Africa. It's a penny stock, barely worth over a dollar a share. I'm heading to my bank today to set up an online trading account, so I can purchase and sell shares online. Setting up the account is free, but I'm not sure I want to buy into this company. I have researched the business and it is legitimate, and the stock broker I talked to knew of them. I would normally not, but I have a large sum of money sitting in an account to pay for my schooling. It would be great if the money was earning more than its current 3% interest annually. I was thinking of investing a small amount, just to see what happens, and then make further investments based on that. The thing is, if I lose all the money I am royally screwed. But, if these shares keep on jumping as high as they are, then I could easily make a couple thousand, probably more. It's such a toss-up.
OH, fabulous news ! Not only am I currently dating a guy that is cute and sweet, but a new one has appeared. He had sent me an email about two weeks ago through Hi5, this website that connects you to your friends and then new people throught them. It turns out that his best girlfriend's best friend is related to one of my friends. Anyways, he emailed me and we chatted on messenger for a bit. He works just down the street from where I live, I'm going to just go into his work and check him out a little bit, you know, to scope out the goods... So, now I need to go and make myself pretty.
OH, and I called into work sick yesterday, which I felt bad about cause I think someone had to work overtime to cover me. Anyways, I woke up this morning with this horrible headache and a lot of sneezing. There was also dried blood on my two fingers and in my ear. No freaking idea how that happened ! I'm sure it was just that the skin of the ear got dry and cracked and bled, but just to be careful, I have a doctor's appointment on Monday.
Anyways, got to go and get ready to go and scope out the second man. Oh, dear, I sense this may end in drama.
Ok, so since there has been quite a strong interest in the magical and quite mystical "undereye" serum that I had mentioned in the previous post, I thought I had better post this so everyone can know !
Firstly, for those of you who do not know, the product in question is called "Undereye Serum" by Clarins. It tightens and moisturizes the area directly beneath the eyes to make them look restored and beautiful. It also makes those damned baggy area and dark circles somewhat disappear. Though it does not remove them completely, it most certain works a miracle, and it takes only seconds to notice a difference !
Secondly, the product I used was part of the men's line. I imagine it makes no difference wether you are male or female using it. Just to be a good researcher though, I have found what I believe to be the comperable product in their female line of cosmetics.
Thirdly, the packaging I am showing you images of here is from their Canadian website, so though I doubt it, the individual packaging may look different in your country.
Ok, so here is the women's line. The item on the far right is what I believe to be the comparable product. The other two are part of their "eye reviving" line, and it may be of use to buy the set to save money. However, I would just recommend getting a sample of the stuff first.
This is the men's product, it is fabulous ! I don't know what else to say !
I am terribly sick of being confused as a ghost when I walk down the street. Seriously, the other day this elderly lady almost fainted because she saw an "apparition" appear and walk towards her. It's because I'm so white you can almost see through me, and it was totally her fault for standing in front of the salon doors like that, I had to look menacing to make her move !
Suffice to say, I am self-tanning today. I am not allowed to see the light of day for more than a couple minutes because of the Accutane™, so I can't go out and get tanned like I would normally be at this time of the year. It's really been hard on my self-esteem to go from being a tanned god one summer to a pasty apparition-confused man-o-white the next.
If I am to be a sun-neurotic vampire this summer, I might as well be a tanned one !
I am using a Neutrogena self-tanner. I had an amazing shower this morning with intense scrubbing and exfoliation action going on. The medication specifically says I should NOT exfoliate my face during it, and therefore I don't know if it's a good idea to try and use the stuff on my face, even though it says it is safe for "facial use". I am starting out by using it on my legs and a small spot on my tummy. Hoepfully, in a couple of hours, that will look good and I can use it on the rest of my body.
I can't believe I have the spare time to do stuff like this, it is awesome. I love being a hectic flying-by-the-seat-of-my-pants student one day to a self-tanning, home spa-ing, yoga-doing fashionista the next.
UPDATE:
The Neutrogena crap turned my legs orange. In a fit of rage I went to the SunMist™ tanning salon downtown. I paid a little bit of money more, but now I have a gorgeous fake tan that looks like I just got back from the Bahamas. It's amazing. I had to wear a loose linen shirt all day, and even though I am kinda sticky, I can't shower until 5pm. At which point it will have been 6 hours since I had it applied.
I have to work tonight at a "cleaning party", which is yet another stupid idea that the corporate heads at Starbucks make their minions do every once in a while. I am not suppose to exercise for at least 24 hours after having it applied, but since I am to clean tonight, I imagine that will involve sweating and "working out". I am honestly considering calling in sick. I would, but my Manager already hates my guts for being a student that can't work as much as she wants, so this might be a tipping point. Meh, f*ck them.
I dropped off resumes at two restaurants yesterday, both of which I know people at, and they would love to have me as a server there. I can't wait to show off my gorgeous tan at some interviews. I told the Co-op office I will be looking for an intership for September, and they told me that there are far fewer people looking this September than there was in the summer. My chances should be good, but that also means no school for about 8 months, I would feel soo guilty. It may be nice though, to have money in my account, and no debt over my head. Hrmm.
I love my tan, I look SO summery ! WOOt to me !
My gorgeous self:
Today I was told by not one, but two friends, that I am a "lush". For those of you not familiar with the term, its a nice, rather fabulous version of an alcoholic.
Mind you, this was while I was trying to find my half-finished bottle of Kahlua that I keep in my desk at home for studying purposes, and then gave up and got my back-up bottle that is in my bedside table.
I also had about 6 drinks last night, and shared a bottle of champagne on the grounds of a very expensive, 5 star hotel here downtown. We later had to leave because someone called security because we were laughing and making a lot of noise. I also drank a lot Saturday night. I already blogged about that, so see previous post ! Well, we walked around a lot downtown with our happy little bottle of champagne. It was my friend's 20th birthday, so we might as well drink as our youth slips away.
I AM SOOO OLD ! GAWD.
Yeah, so I have this huge craving for Bailey's right now, which is overwhelming, its all I can think about. I am "babysitting" my 9 year-old brother right now, and its almost his bedtime. I think I am going to put him to bed and go and by some Bailey's to have with coffee tonight. I can also use the Bailey's to have with coffee during my haircut at the salon tommorrow at the ungodly hour of 8:45am. I love how all these plans come to fruition perfectly !
I am totally not a lush, I just enjoy life and have fun. I think there are PLENTY of people who drink more than I do. OOoo, I wonder how I should have my hair done. Post a comment on whether I should go really short or really long, I like extremes !
Ciao Y'all !
