To Sarah from me.

Sarah, a friend of Meghans' that I do not know, made a comment on my last post that made me think. A link to her blog is on the right.

Anyways, she essentially got me thinking about the stuff going on in my life, mostly surrounding Cody. We also had a good talk (Cody and I) last night about where we are and what is going on. We are most definately on a break, and we shall remain as such until he returns to BC. I think it is good for us to be independant for now, seeing as we can barely see one another anyways, so we might as well just be on a 'break'.

I know we should get back together when he returns, it makes me mad that he left in the first place, but I want us to try at it again. I don't know when he is coming back, which only adds to the anger and confusion. However, my coworker said it perfectly when she told me to "stop worrying so much, relax, if its meant to be, then it will be".

Then comes up the issue of the plane ride to Montreal and my planned trip to go there. The issue is slightly monetary in origin, but mostly it is about whether or not it would be awkward for me to visit him while we are 'on a break'. To this she also replied that "you should go there, visit him, see the city. Consider it a vacation, and enjoy it as such. Then, when it is over, you will know whether you still have feelings for this guy, or you have moved on and it can no longer be. Just relax and enjoy it, and discover if your spark is still there at the same time."

I think she is right in both regards. I am suppose to go to Eric's party tonight, and I think I will. We will have fun, but not too much cause I work tommorrow, hehe. I am going to just let go and relax. I'm not going to try and move on from Cody, in fact, I want to maintain contact, but I won't worry so much this way. Then, we can see how it all fits and how it is between us when I go and visit him next month. Life goes on, and so it shall. When the time is right, we shall see if we are right.